Help.

[astcell]

It gets better. I'm the poster boy for how effed up a life can get, but at least when you hit rock bottom there is nowhere to go but up. Trust me, life gets better. See the thread Cot posted above about Renderman.

[TheCotMan]

I want to off myself. I know it isn't the right thing to do. I have lived an interesting life, but this fucking depression fucking blows. Its like a comfortable blanket. I have been to a couple of DefCons, and you people are me... help. This shit blows. I am too good for this.

Maybe check out a thread started by Renderman:

https://forum.defcon.org/forum/gener...418-depression

Many people replied with many thoughts on this. Do any suggestions or tools suggested help you to help yourself?

[Added:]
If you have ideas on tools or things that helped you, you can also help others by making suggestions on what worked for you in that same thread. There are no guarantees for any one tool or technique to work for everyone. Best bet is likely professional help. If you don't have access, help from those that suffer might be a help to some people.

[Sk3l3t0r]

I want to off myself. I know it isn't the right thing to do. I have lived an interesting life, but this fucking depression fucking blows. Its like a comfortable blanket. I have been to a couple of DefCons, and you people are me... help. This shit blows. I am too good for this.